I can't believe it has been 6 months since you left us. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday I got the phone call. Sometimes it feels like you have been gone forever. Sometimes I forget and want to call you to tell you about some little dumb thing that happened. Usually it is about your cat and how he is adjusting to life here. Then I remember he wouldn't be here if I could still call you.
The holidays were hard, especially Thanksgiving. Christmas is so busy, but there is always a lot of sitting around and thinking/talking on Thanksgiving. I was expecting the holidays to be hard. But this time after the holidays have been harder. I think its just coming down to doing the day to day stuff is what is dragging on me. I guess its just weird to go about my day to day life knowing you aren't here any more. I have a hard time thinking about what it will be like if we start a family. I think that will be some of the times when I want my mom the most.
The house/estate stuff has been weird too. I am trying to be practical with the stuff I am taking home, but it is hard to let some of the stuff go, but I try to remind myself that it is just stuff. Your closet is still hard to go into. The Christmas decorations were also hard. Slowly we are getting things cleared out. I am going back during spring break to work some more.
Mom, I sure do miss you.